rushing. rushing. rushing.

time is passing by so fast. 2 more days.
and here comes, my sch's orientation.
im SO NOT READY.
not ready for everything.
`15 april 2009.
from 9am to 5pm in sch at wdlands.
and 7pm to 9+pm at kallang for my course.
can i make it on time?

`16 april 2009.
9am-5pm in sch AGAIN.

`17 april 2009.
the "BEST" thing ever.
9am to 9pm.
(why sia so long?)

IM SO NOT READYYYYYYYYYYY.

IM PATHETICALLY NOT READY FOR THIS.
EVERYTHING IS SUCH A RUSH.
I NEED TIME.
AND YES, IM AFRAID I ILL LET PEOPLE DOWN.
MY HEAD TELLIN ME I CANT DO IT.
I CANT. I CANT. I CANT.
ITS SO BAD.
MY CONFIDENCE IS GETTIN LOW.
IT DROPPED again.
baby, im scared.
he says i haf a heart of a fighter thou im small size.
i have a spirit of taking in challenges.
people noe i can do it.
the only opponent i got to defeat is e voice in my head tellin me i cant do it.
but still, im scared.
baby, u wil not leave me ryt?
u promise me to be with me goin thru all dis.
im so glad. im relieved.
ilysm. :)